Beauties of motherhood.
Today, I’m staying home because I contracted stomach flu from my daughter. Apparently, there are more cases in the daycare, so my daughter got it first, and now me. For her, it happened over the weekend, so my husband and I had time to clean, scrub and wash everything. Me, though – I was not that lucky. The “storm” started for me yesterday closer to bedtime and it calmed down around 4 am. So, I had to take a sick day off work.
By now, you might be thinking that I’m complaining or that I make no sense, but for me, stopping for one day means a lot. Plus, I have to skip 1 class tonight.
You see, when you work continuously and you have so many things to do, tasks to accomplish, challenges to face, you get into a rhythm of life that excites you, keeps you motivated, gives you a purpose and new opportunities every day. And when you suddenly have to stop, you don’t know what to do. So I feel lost right now. My daughter is at the daycare, because I’m too weak and nauseated to take care of her, I’m pinned to my bed and I can’t do anything around the house, for work or for my class. This feels like torture to me. I’d rather be at work and at the lecture learning new material, than being at home, being sick and sitting around without doing much.
"Nothing can stop me now!"
In the back of my head, I know that we’re all human beings and we’re allowed to have breaks, but in real life it is very little applicable to me. I’m a doer. I’m a mover. I’m a worker. I’m a mom (and moms never take breaks). Recently, I’m a student too. This is my lifestyle. This is how I’m used to living and I chose this all. My choices keep me energized. They are the source of my power. And when I’m deprived of it all at once, I feel like something is wrong. I don’t know what to do. I stumble in the process of figuring out what to do when I’m physically incapable of moving. I seek activity and I just can’t get it. For just one day, I have to do nothing.
In the end, it’s not all that bad, it’s more about adjusting to the situation and trying to enjoy the calm of the day, even when you feel like you can’t. Women, especially moms, will understand what I’m talking about. And, while I can’t have a glass of anything except water and tea, I strongly encourage you to stop for a bit, get a glass of wine/champagne/anything, breath the moment in and love yourself for all that you are. Everything we do on a daily basis is hard, but it’s even harder to stop. So, today, if you feel like you’re out off track, just enjoy it and remember that it’s all temporary. If tomorrow comes, you’ll have 24 hours to live the day you want!