I want to dedicate this blog post to all the mommas in the World! There’s not another more difficult role than the one of a mother.
I feel this being one of the hardest posts to put into words, and that I need to weigh every word in order to not say too much or too less.
My 2,5 year-old daughter is going through a very terrible “terrible-twos” phase. The only word overused in our house is “NO”, even more than “mommy”. It is so harshly overused that real life is a whole lot of challenge every single day. From morning till she goes to bed. There’s nothing she likes, nothing she wants to do that we, the parents, say. She doesn’t want to wake up, to dress for the day, to change nappies, to eat her breakfast, to get into her car seat, to change her shoes when I go to pick her up, to get out of the daycare when it’s already closing, to get into the car again before coming home, to listen to music if I tell her something she decides she doesn’t like, to wash her hands before dinner, to take her bath, to get into bed, to put on her pajamas, to lay in bed, and so on and so forth. She literally fights every single word we address to her, doesn’t matter if it’s a positive or a negative one. She hits, she bites, she screams until her face turns blue. She cries at every little thing you try to get her into, like putting her shoes on, or letting me change her soiled diaper. She throws temper tantrums every minute of our time together and I feel like my head is about to explode!
I have tried almost every educational method there is out there. I’m tired, for reals. I’m desperate. I feel like I can’t take this anymore. I wish I had my parents next to me so that I could crawl up in their laps and forget about all the psychological states I’m going through. I cried almost every night for the past 4 weeks and I’m emotionally drained!
It is such an emotionally charged period, that I just have no other solution right now than give up and let it all go. Many times, I have no idea what to do with her, especially when she’s in the middle of a crisis, but I just pray for the day this whole lotta misery just goes away.
To top it all off, my daughter started waking up at night again, and I feel like my brain is dying already. Work, home, a toddler in her terrible twos, sleepless nights. Challenges over challenges and it feels like it’s never going to end.
I am exhausted from everyday-life like never before! I don’t feel the need to explain myself anymore. It is what it is and I am not going to hide it for the sake of a perfect on-line life. Real life is everything that’s happening behind the screen, and it’s happening to all of us.
It’s hard to raise children, especially when there is no family around to help you out. It’s hard to understand kids when they go through all sorts of phases, and they change as quick as the night and day! It’s hard to be a parent, an employee, a human being and a woman, all at the same time, still doing life like you’ve got it all under control! It is all just too much sometimes!
Today, my cry to you, mommies, is to remember that you are incredible creatures that can really DO. IT. ALL! There’s nobody as strong as you are, dear mommies. There’s no other who can bring you down and break your spirit. You are the Universe to your families and you are the force that moves the lives of all those surrounding you. Don’t you ever forget this!
If you are going through some shit right now, just know that this too shall pass, and that you are doing a tremendous job. Every. Single. Day.